I’m sitting here sobbing as I write. I can’t figure out if it’s the pain from my nerve block or from being scared. Today is one of those days where life is too overwhelming. I’m here alone with my dog while my fiancé is working so hard for us to have a life together. All… Continue reading Post Nerve Block
It’s really hard writing this today. I want to know why my brain is the way it is. I want to know why physical and mental diseases chose me. I want to know why I can’t find anything that makes me happy enough to smile today and yesterday. I thought my medication was working, and… Continue reading When You Are As Low As Low Gets
While there has been nothing good about having chronic illnesses, I have realized lately that there is just one thing that I can take away from it. I’ve learned to stand up for myself. I’ve learned to not just take people’s comments and feel like I can’t say anything back. This isn’t just in a… Continue reading I’m different
Four months. I promised myself I’d write every single day. Life got away from me. My appointments for doctors and physical therapy filled up my Monday thru Friday each week. I was so exhausted and still am. I am continuing to see new doctor’s at this point. What is weird is how you start out… Continue reading No More Justification
Why is my world falling apart? There is a sadness inside of me that is so black. I’m not sure how long I will be in this state of mind. I’m alone with my dog, and I want anything but to be alone right now. I need a distraction so my mind won’t take me… Continue reading Let There Be Light
I find it devastatingly rude when people decide to give someone with a chronic illness advice on something that they are never around to witness. I will not get into specifics, but I will say that one day I might implode from keeping shit inside. Just because I am not dealing with visible diseases does… Continue reading Explain Myself Again Or No?
My dog’s name is Jackson. He was adopted by me and my fiancé in March of this year. It was a coincidence meeting him. My fiancé, Matt, knew that I was struggling, perhaps at my lowest point ever. My therapist had recently suggested that adopting an animal might be beneficial for me in helping with… Continue reading A Warm Puppy